I want to....

I wanted to fly high in the sky,
But the weight on me did not let me even try.

I wanted to touch the stars and the sun,
But I had to be content with a pebble downtrodden.

I wanted the world to stop while I hold her hand,
But what i got was, like time flowing sand.

I wanted to have dreams of her beauty,
But i got nightmares of her going away from me.

I wanted to laugh out loud,
But my throat always choked out.

I wanted to feel the cool breeze around,
But what I always got is a chill, death bound.

I wanted to enjoy a lot of things,
But my pain trimmed my wings.

Now I want to cry out with tears,
But my eyes dry up even before they appear.

I want to shout out loud like some mad,
But the noise around me kills it before I had.

I want to hurt myself to the last limit,
But something bigger overshadows that limit.

This is the story of my life,
Never get to do what I want in my life.